Thursday, May 15, 2008

Anyone else?

I've not been the most religious reader. I've been known to miss 10 days and spend several hours on a Sunday morning catching up. But this week I've been trying to do better. I found a trick. I've been reading online, at work, when it's quiet and I have a free moment. Or when I need a moment!

So yesterday I had a horrible experience with my boss. He was disrespectful, dismissive, and downright rude to me in front of other teachers, my other bosses, parents and students. I felt it was totally uncalled for and so did most of the other witnesses. So much so that the rest of the day was a constant barrage of, "how can I help?", "what can I do?", "are you okay?" but of course nothing from my boss. Except a backhanded email that I was cc'd on that I feel as another slap in the face.

But I recall this story not to whine, or because I am looking for sympathy, I did plenty of that yesterday. But here's what I also did. I came right back to my office and I opened "my bible" (online of course) and I read. And I felt better. I felt like God was speaking to me and that no matter what happens to me here, I am to know I am loved and frankly, I am a better person for not retaliating as I had initially wanted to do.

I took my moment and I read, and prayed, and remembered what's really important in life. And I can't say a year ago I would have ever done that or even thought about doing that. I am so glad to have been able to have this experience of going through the bible. I find some of it really uninteresting but then comes along a story I really connect with or one I'd always heard about but never read for myself. Very cool.

I hope you all are getting something from this experience whether you're still in March's readings or you're a week ahead. Keep reading, I'm going to, I know God has a plan and I can't wait to read how it all started!